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2009-05-22T22:24:00.002+08:00

i realise that after i ord i got a hell lot of things to buy!!

- 01 x handphone
- 01 x camera
- 01 x laptop
- 01 x sneakers
- 01 x running shoes
- 01 x bagpack
- 01 x sling bag
and many many clothes.

gonna be broke huh?

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2009-04-30T22:49:00.001+08:00

man legs and hands are itching and im kinda aching all over. hate going outfield.

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2009-04-18T18:23:00.002+08:00

it kinda sucks to spend ur birthday at combat shoot. and to make it worse, u almost cldnt get marksman cuz of ur stupid rifle. it was a close shave though. still exahusted from the shoot. i spent my last yr's bdae at a field camp too. zzz...

but nevertheless, really appreciate those who wished me happy birthday in one way or another. its really nice to know that pple do remember ur birthday ya? thank you, u guys made my day.

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2009-04-12T21:00:00.002+08:00

really frusrating when u dun get enough sleep and enough time to do whatever u want..

anw i'm not gonna change my blogskin so soon.. haha. sorry yy. lazy to change and its quite cool wad.. lol.

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2009-04-04T15:25:00.002+08:00

i think my ipod can understands its owner's feelings. really. thank you for making me feel worse when i wasnt really exactly in a good mood. this is a list of songs it played for me when i put in on shuffle when i intended to cheer myself up through music:

Daniel Powter - Bad Day
孙燕姿 - 眼泪成诗
蔡依林 - 妥协
孙燕姿 - Hey Jude
叮当 - 猜不透
183 Club - 感情线
张惠妹 - 我无所谓
萧亚轩 - 冲动
S.H.E - 安静了
罗志祥 - 我不会唱歌

zzz.. its sad de can. man i really feel so dumb.

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2009-04-03T21:10:00.002+08:00

I cant stand pple that are too simple-minded or even to the extent of being naive. at the same time, its disgusting to see how complex and hypocritical some pple can be. this world is so ironic.

oh man i really dread going bck to that mandai hell. i wanna ORD!!

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2009-03-30T16:44:00.002+08:00

i'm back!! man i miss singapore and i'm really glad to come home. it was an interesting experience although it was really pure shag-ness. really was both a physical and mental torture. but feel quite accomplished after conquering biang and 7 knolls with all the $%^!&@ heavy load and not forgetting the stupid hammer. grrr...

so now i shall enjoy my well desrved rest.. before reporting back to the hell camp nxt week and continuing on the lousy hectic schedule.

man i really really wanna go taiwan... haha.

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2009-03-16T19:23:00.000+08:00

flying off to brunei soon.

cya.

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2009-03-08T08:38:00.002+08:00

went back for victorian's day ytd. met up with ys and farah. ok la it wasnt what i expected, thought there wld be much more pple but it turned out to be just a small crowd. oh well but at least i got to meet like mr ho and mrs koh who are just as entertaining as ever. and i got to eat the canteen food.. i ate western w/o putting the mayo of cuz. and saw like he yun and michelle senjaya.

ended up in plaza sing to watch movie, marley and me. george and sy joined in. it was quite a nice movie and i really dun understand why george fell asleep. haha but i guess he was really tired. it was quite touching, esp when marley was abt to die. kinda rekindled my love for dogs. erm wait, arent i one myself now? shld recommend tis movie to encik do that he knows how to treat "dogs" better.

so in the end aft the movie suhui came and 6 of us ended up walking all arnd searching for our dinner. settled with swensens. and the world is so small.. kept meeting familiar faces and frens. it was really cool meeting up with you guys, it really makes me feel more "me".. haha. its really nice chatting with you peeps.

sigh going exercise tml again. seriously cant they just give us a break.. not that i wanna slack but i really think they're mad or perhaps they accidentally emptied they brains while signing their contracts. and i really hope, though impossble, that the pnrs will really stop making pple angry and bring trouble upon us. and to our dearest ps, pls wake up ur idea, its not like u haven got enough naggin and scoldings.

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2009-02-28T21:53:00.002+08:00

haven really have any time and energy to blog. haven really dun have much things to blog abt. how boring can my life be???

i wanna call the spca as they are mistreating us, comman-dogs.

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2009-02-14T20:32:00.003+08:00

watched curious case of benjamin buttons todae. very nice show although draggy at parts. but still recommended to watch. its kinda sad though. life is really so unpredictable. its really amazing to see how different people crossed paths in their lives and at the same time depressing to see people that entered ur life have to go. life can be filled with happiness and, unfortunately, regrets too at the same time.

zzz but i really need some good rest. just feeling so shagged out.

happy valentines.

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2009-02-07T11:57:00.000+08:00

i'm just not in the right mood to do anything. can't believe im frowning on a saturday.

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2009-01-30T23:35:00.002+08:00

tis yr's cny hasnt been very joyous to me. not saying its bad or what but just nth much lo. its just a longer weekend and a longer break for me. perhaps cuz im still suffering in army? or probably due to the bad economy tis yr? or maybe ur friends are scattered all over the place and none of them meets up with u? well well.. hai.

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2009-01-25T10:13:00.002+08:00

Yesterday's chain of events:

1. BOOK OUT aft COS duty
2. OC's wedding
3. Shopping along Orchard
4. Watch Love Matters
5. Dinner + Shopping again
6. Home

haha jus lazy to type everything. wooo new yr eve and long weekend =)

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2009-01-17T21:09:00.002+08:00

The phone ring..GREEN GREEN. I PINK up the phone and said YELLOW? BLUE is this? WHITE you want? You don't PURPLEly call me. If you make me angry, i will not call you BLACK.
(trailer from Love Matters)

putting joke aside, i really desire a much better life, at least free of army.

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2009-01-02T21:07:00.001+08:00

ehhh.... happy new yr!!

wasnt a very bad start to the yr.

got to watch beautiful fireworks at marina sq with random crazy army frens, plus i got a veh gd view (but i tink the organisers are quite budget tis time). and got to meet up with the sj pple which turned out to be a fun filled bitching session.

well but im still suffering from the exhaustion frm the 12km march and the continuous lack of slp for the past few nights.

tis yr will probably be a tough yr for me. cuz of my stupid army life agn which i dun wna mention.

but at least i will be looking forward to the many long weekends tis yr which hopefully wun be burned, and praying that i will get my driving license by tis yr with only 1 try and lastly ORD on 091109 =)

hope u guys will have a smooth yr ahead too.

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2008-12-20T21:02:00.003+08:00

i took 36 ytd and it passed by Victoria Junior College. sudden surge of thoughts just entered my mind.

missed the days in vj, esp since my life now is really horrible and spending almost everyday in such an incorrigible place.i rmbed how indecisive i was when i chose my jc. comtemplating between ajc, sa, nj and vj wasnt really my 1st choice. but for dunno wadeva reason, i chose vj in the end. maybe it was peer pressure or maybe just thought it was a top sch. nevertheless i believed i made a right choice.

rmb the 1st day of sch where everyone have to register at the concourse and get their orientation package and stuff.. yea.. at that point of time everyone was just strangers to one another. well other than those who came from anderson too. e.g. yy, jw, gj, jingyi, pj (who later went nj) etc, and many of them take the 858-36 route too. haha. talking abt 858, i tink pple who takes the same bus knows that i always sit at the front door cuz the bus is super crowded. and the bus often jus whizzed past me cuz it refuse to take more passengers. haha. and everyone likes to ask me why i go vj since its so far away from my hse. i always say i dunno but its worth the travelling =)

met alot of nice pple in vj and some not so nice ones too. i love my class, 06s64!! haha though the pple are not the same b4 and aft 1st 3 mths, its still as fun as ever. rmb how we used to slack and copy hmk in the concourse, mug in the library, pon econs lect to go slp somewhere and do some other more useful things, forever attending our chem tutorials as no one dares to skip wong's lessons, the stress during exam periods as the class is supersmart esp with so many scholars arnd -.-, how we keep teasing suhui and quek, trying not to eat last during breaks as the last person has to clear other ppl's plates, laughing at el's ahpek-ness and going to his hse to have gatherings and bbq, forever waiting for sheena and george for their council stuff, and the singing with the usual kbox gang, and duno whoever said our class only got 3 clique (LOL) etc etc. too many things to say... haha. but really thank s64 for being such a great bunch of pple and made my vj life enjoyable =)

and the next wonderful bunch of pple that i know is the kayaking team. life in the team is definitely a super challenging one. forever undermined by the school and have to keep meeting teo's demand and his wet blanket. many times i was really gonna give up but i guess lucky i din. learned how to endure and persevere and the encouragement frm one another in the team made a big difference. rmb when i was joined the cca i was super quiet.. and i kept pon-ing trainings cuz i was too lazy and tired, which i really really regretted. and oh i rmb the class called my pon-star during 1st 3mths cuz i kept poning trng and lects =P oh well it was till very late that i finally woke up and decided to train very hard. all the land water gym, quite surprise that i can survive all of them. road was fulll of ups and downs.. blah blah.. in the end jw and i jus managed to get into the semis. seriously wonder if i haven been pon-in the trngs at the start, wld we have acheived more? but well im just grateful that kayak has helped built both my mental and physcial strength and gave my gd frens =)

and i guess there are still many many other things that u know im too lazy to type it all out. hmmm like ocip where we went to cambodia. really missed the peacefulness over there and the kids who are soooo innocent. rmb how everybody got all muddy from the well-digging and savour the sugarcane juice over there.. haha. oh and there's also orientation'08 as i was an ogl then. it was really then i was so into mass dancing. haha. not easy remembering all the 6 yea..

oh well i guess i shall end here. thanks for all in vjc who made a difference in my college life. good luck and take care.

nil sine labore

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2008-08-22T00:06:00.001+08:00

"Welcome To My Life"

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

...

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2008-08-17T00:49:00.002+08:00

孙燕姿--同类
作词:易家扬　作曲:李偲菘

雨后的城市寂寞又狼狈
路边的座位它空着在等谁
我拉住时间它却不理会
有没有别人跟我一样很想被安慰

风停了又吹我忽然想起谁天
亮了又黑我过了好几岁
心暖了又灰世界有时候孤单的很需要另一个同类
爱收了又给我们都不太完美
梦作了又碎我们有几次机会　

去追
不晓得为什么爱又稀少又昂贵
云在半空中被微风剪碎
回忆也许美可是正在飞走对不对

heard this song on the radio.. used to be my fav song. do not be mistaken as im not emoing. jus that i tink the lyrics are rather meaningful.

learn how to treasure and be happy =)

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2008-07-27T15:57:00.000+08:00

how is life for all of you ?
=)

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2008-07-05T20:59:00.002+08:00

Wanted. army shld jus train pple to shoot like assasins in the show. its actly quite cool to be able to shoot the bullet in a circular trajectory. jus scrape all the m16 and saw. hahaha.. jus kidding. the show was quite nice la jus that the story is abit dumb..

outing with u guys is nice. haha enjoyed talking to u all although we wasted quite some time todae. and i was surprised that we all ended up in ntu. lol.

cong asked me todae why my blog so sad.. actly i also dunno why. i dun rmb myself being such a pessimist and retard in the past. i miss my old self who used to have a more optimistic side, more dignity, more functioning brain cells and his own logic about life which i felt was cool.

dunno how shld i end this entry. jus say my body, mind, soul and heart are jus not together rite now. haha.. lame. really sorry, hope u guys will bare with my depressing entries..

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2008-06-25T15:05:00.002+08:00

always getting the things that i dun like.. life's nvr fair!
jus felt like bitching.. LOL.

nvm. anw blogging abt last sunday.. lucky that we booked in on monday morning. so i cld hang out arnd more on sunday with the class peeps. tzeting came bck from australia for hols i guess? but it was cool seeing her as we long time nvr meet. hmm listening to her stories overseas was fun.. at least easily better than my ns life now. arrgghhh shant talk abt army. went to eat at shodoku, food was not bad but super ex.. zzz. had hell lot of talking cock.. esp with that quek arnd. haha. aft that to play arcade at marina sq cuz me suhui george and zl waiting to watch dont mess with zohan. super dumb show.. but veh funny la. haha.. recently got all the blockbusters coming out.. no time to watch.. zzz.

platoon 2 sect 1.. all the sluts, dumbfucks and bitches. miss u peeps. lol. now we are kinda almost splitted up? hmm guess we'll only get together agn 7 weeks later, that is if i dun ooc. hahaha.

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2008-06-14T23:14:00.002+08:00

i went to watch the incredible hulk ALONE todae. tried asking many pple to go out but none of them have time to entertain me.. same like last week. feel so dejected. nvm.. haha. its not that bad watching a movie alone anw. the movie was quite nice.. got the ironman standard i tink. anw the iron man guy showed up at the end of the movie lo, seems like there's something fishy b/w hulk and ironman. haha. i rmb i used to dislike hulk as a marvel hero.. thought he was quite lousy esp when playing marvel vs capcom. lol.

i need an ord!!

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2008-06-01T18:29:00.004+08:00

放下枪回忆毕业去年的学校
而眼泪一直都忘记要掉

how nostalgic can these lyrics be. lol. the feeling of booking in is always so bitter and dreadful. the only thing that army has taught me so far.. is to really love my family and frens and treasure my home more.. haha.

what a moody entry agn.. arrrggghhh. i promise i will write smth happier nxt time. haha,

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2008-05-19T20:47:00.002+08:00

我需要
多一点希望，
多一点安慰，
多一点陪伴，
多一点时间，
多一点快乐
和一个休止符。

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2008-05-18T21:44:00.002+08:00

i am officially out of pasir laba camp.. haha. need no go bck to that place ( i guess..) graduated from bslc ytd aft the freaking 28km (fast) march.. zzz. i wld say this 8 weeks was quite rocky for me. found it hard to adapt initally.. and as the course continued, trngs became tough and had major loss of sleep. i wasnt veh enthusiastic thru out but i did try my best.. err.. ok maybe at least 80% ? hahaha. but well, put the horrible things apart, at least i get to know quite a few frens and nice pple, esp my section.. and i wld say my platoon had really gd instructors. so well, to delta plt 2, gdluck to all and tkcare! and to sect3, hopefully we will meet up soon. but i guess no one will ever visit this blog anw.. haha.

posted to be a field engineer.. i guess its one of those combat engineers? not veh sure abt tis vocation but i heard its quite xiong.. siggggghhhhhh. why cant my ns life be any better.. zzz. well at least one gd thing is my new camp site is nee soon camp which is quite near my hse.. haha. but another thing is, there's no direct bus from home to there.. zzz. so yea.. gonna report there on tues morning. why cant they jus give us a longer break...... =(

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2008-05-01T13:51:00.002+08:00

i know i've disappeared for like veh long. haha. so i decided to blog now to let you all know that i haven exactly vanished from this earth. its just that i've been tired and busy with being in the army. everytime book out got no time to go out.. when i online also no one online to talk to.. i guess the rest of the guys have all entered army and life have changed for them as well. the gals are either at work or with their other frens. oh well, so might as well use the time to nua at home and pray that life will improve soon? haha..

actly i dunno what i wan to blog abt. cant possibly be writing all the army stuff as it will bored pple to death and i've no interest in writing them anw. hmm.. really wanna meet up with pple.. esp those i haven seen in ages. haha. see how ba.. try no to forget me la pple..... LOL.

k la i will end this entry here. see you and tkcare =)

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2008-04-05T23:29:00.000+08:00

just feel like running away..

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2008-03-21T22:23:00.005+08:00

went singing with sheena suz and ys todae. haha k-ing clique. very long nvr sing le.. but it was fun as usual. sang all the old songs which kinda made everyone high. pretty funny esp when we all sang zao sia. suz and sheena can go take part in superband la.. their grp name can be like S². haha. not bad lo their combi..haha.

had dinner with suz at the 香港茶餐厅 cuz ys and sheena hafta leave early. bad service la cuz they din record our order properly..zzz. we were like super hungry then. food was nice la but i wun consider it great. or maybe i ordered the wrong stuff..haha.

tired....oh well tml hafta go for the fa comp. siaaaaaaaannnnnnnnnnnnn. haha. hope anderson win smth =P

and grats to those whose got their preferred posting. haha esp those going police or ocs.

i've not excelled in any areas of my life. i've always been mediocre. be it academic, cca, relationships, friendships, skills, and now ns..i am just ordinary. i dun want to be jus average in things i do.. i want to be great, excel and be proud of myself. im not emoing..jus reflecting =/

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2008-03-16T22:33:00.003+08:00

after leaving my blog stagnant for sooooo long, i decided to start blogging again. well at least till im being posted to my new unit which i seriously wonder where (hopefully somewhere slack).

cant believe i just POP-ed last week and to my horror there's still like abt 1 yr and 8 mths to go.. how consoling is that? haha..but well this 9 weeks of BMT has been quite an enriching and unique experience la. its filled with ups and downs and i thought i was quite suay throughout.. but i am just glad that i was able to endure thru the thing and at the same time got to know many nice pple (and of cuz bad ones too).

still wondering if i shld choose nus or ntu. each uni has its own pros and cons and there's so much more to consider other than the course. but just hope that the uni-s will accept my application as i know chem engin is really quite competitive. sigh, this reminds me of my grades. though i am like over it alr, but i cant help to feel disappointed when i tink of my grades. but then no point la.. life still goes on..hahaha.

for now, i shld jus enjoy my block leave before going back to hell. i guess i've been missing alot of things and its time to do some catching up! gd luck to those entering ns soon man..hahaha.

oh and went to watch step up 2 ytd with fy wt and pj aft nus open hse. very nice show.. it feels kinda different from step up but its a cool movie with all the dancing (duh), songs and funny parts. fy got so excited by the lead actress butt..haha..but i agree that she's hot la.

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2008-02-06T16:47:00.000+08:00

i know i've not been blogging for ages. only bck for like 4days cuz its cny. oh well better than nth. but anw, happy chinese new year pple!!

duno wad to blog actly. i tink im so detach frm the civilian world rite now. not really gonna blog abt ns.. it jus sucks la basically. and who knows if writing things abt ns is a chargeable offence. lol.

for those who haven enter ns, pls treasure ur precious time left. haha. for those alr in ns, lets jus cont enduring this stupid thing. there are so many things i wanna do now....

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2008-01-08T13:37:00.000+08:00

ok. this will probably be my last post before i enter ns. haha not really looking forward to it but no choice lo. jus hope that things wun be that bad inside. so tkcare pple!! see you guys when i book out..hahaha.

feeling veh tired. mus be the late nights and chalet. zzz..

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2008-01-01T11:01:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 2008!!

yup its already the start of a new yr. time really flies. i really dunno wad to say but really hope everyone will have a smooth yr ahead. tkcare pppl, esp those working and going ns soon. and dun forget abt all ur frens and family. haha. and really a big thank you to those who helped me along the way and made my 2007 an enjoyable yr =)

btw for those who want to see the interjc pageant thing.. this is the website:
http://www.playnetearth.com/interjcpageant2008/voting.php
so..erm...vote? lol.

one last thing. i hate pple who intrude into my privacy.

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2007-12-29T23:07:00.000+08:00

ok have been bored as nobody asks me out. so unpopular la me..hahaha. ok im not emo-ing jus talking crap. but well, since i was bored i went running jus now. and i felt totally hopeless as my fitness dropped like hell. i have lost tremendous amt of stamina and strength. sigh. i want my 9min24secs and 20 pull-ups back. zzz..only less than 2 weeks left to train..shucks.

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2007-12-27T17:39:00.000+08:00

had a xmas gathering with the sjab pple ytd. but only like 6 pple turn out..so yea..sigh~~ nevertheless, there's still fun and laughter. plus our favourite mahjong, although we din play alot. hee. and thx for the present frm like vincent....erm rite? haha..and cel for being a gd host and ur choc frm greece. should have more gatherings..before i enter ns. haha. oh and i wanna meet vin online..to show him the pic that will make him envy me for life. hahaha jus joking.

national treasure i very very nice. watched with zhiwei todae..lucky got him accompany or else i was planning to watch alone. haha highly recommended movie.

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2007-12-25T23:05:00.000+08:00

some random pics i took on the cruise:

this is the sunrise that i tried to take. woke up late so the sun already above horizon. quite nice though.

the white xmas tree on the cruise.

this is like when reaching harbourfront. forgot what this place called. but this pic look like some model u see in showflats.

the handsome me when i was bored on the cruise. hahaha. decided that i shld take a pic of myself when im botak during ns.

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2007-12-25T11:11:00.000+08:00

went out with the kayak guys ytd and jialing. haha. summary: board games, sushi and pool/arcade. long time nvr meet up le..so it was enjoyable la. and there's zhiwei who is forever entertaining us...hahaha. but the sushi was kinda cheat money..not nice de. all of us din finish our rice..haa.

siaaaaannnnnnnnn!!! like 2 more weeks to ns. sigh.........btw merry xmas everyone. and my new yr resolution is to slim down..so stop complaining that i am fat!! haha.

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2007-12-22T20:08:00.000+08:00

ok i jus came back from cruise ytd.. apparently cruise trip was like boring. not suitable for pple of our age.. UNLESS.. UNLESS.. UNLESS.. YOU GO WITH FRIENDS. haha so i dun mind like nxt time going with like frens for some gathering or reunion. well, at least there are like enough pple for mahjong.

oh and i coincidentally met anqi on the cruise. lucky for me, or else i tink i will be walking arnd the whole cruise aimlessly for like a zillion times. we did like a few things. for example, the casino where some stupid security thinks i am only 16 when he thinks anqi is 18. zzz..but its quite fascinating in the casino. see how pple throw their money away and the banker happily sweeping their bets off the table. both our parents are like hooked onto jackpot which we find quite lame cuz u pay like hundreds of dollars to repeatedly press a button.

we visted this celebrity disco where we got ourselves a drink. ladies night so it was buy one get one free. but we din know it came in pure shots..so had a hard time drinking it. and my face got quite red some time after and anqi kept laughing at me. there was like an indian couple doing their bollywood and a down syndrome kid dancing there. it was quite funny to watch but i admit the kid was quite pro.

den we went to this galaxy of star for this live band thing. the singers were like damn pro la. and their songs were really mesmerizing and sleep-inducing as well. lol. it was veh nice but no pple went cuz the ship's population are like either at the casino or at the topless show then. zzz..

oh and the arcade too. the games there abit cheat money lo..and they dun accept plastic notes to exchange for tokens..zzz. but there was this ghost hitting game that was damn fun..but super tiring as well. wonder why sg's arcade dun have one leh..

but what i really enjoyed was eating on the cruise. though i was sick, i cldnt care. i jus ate and ate. the food there was really nice, at least average and above. haha. its like breakfast, lunch, teabreak, dinner and supper..5 meals a day! lol. and i ate this expensive jap food that was like super good. haha but the consequence is that, i am now 60.4 kg. omg..gotta go on diet liao.

one bad thing is that i miss the sunrise. siaaaaannnnn. but i manage to take a nice pic..upload nxt time. oh and the balcony view frm my room was really nice =)

oh well, i dunno what to say liao. think i typed alot. haha. now its time to prepare myself for the stupid ns...grrrr....

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2007-12-17T22:35:00.001+08:00

sigh. im sick!! and im going on cruise soon.
oh man..perhaps this will stop me from eating so much on the cruise so that i dun grow fatter and fatter. zzz.. but u gotta admit that eating is the best thing to do on a cruise. haha.

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2007-12-13T10:50:00.000+08:00

nth to blog abt so decided to post some of the prom pics ba. its all grp pics..haha. i din put my most pic which is...hahaha..tink wt will know which one i talkin abt.

got so fed up with blogger. took forever to upload the pics and it failed once. grrr..

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2007-12-10T19:34:00.000+08:00

i find it quite interesting to watch the SEA games especially swimming. super exciting la and our singapore swimmers really did well. haha. but i guess for now, they can only perform in this region ba. difficult for them to clinch medals in the asian or olympic level. but i was quite surprised many of our swimmers are rookies and so young.. and many other of our athletes too. haha. so envy la, it will be so cool to represent singapore..

realise some of the female swimmers are actually quite big-sized. scary..lol.

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2007-12-06T14:03:00.000+08:00

reached home at 7am tis morning and i jus woke up. haha its 2pm now. and i am having a terrible sore throat. hmmm i still have to say prom was a waste of money la, nevertheless, i still enjoyed myself =D

ytd morning went to celebrate cel's bdae first with the stjohn pple. so long nvr meet some of them le. went bck opp. anderson to eat the 手工面 which we kinda missed. its always nice to hang arnd with stjohn peeps.

after that went home and went agn to meet the kayak guys to do our hair at reds. it was raining damn badly which kinda dampens the mood. now my hair is like short and messy. haha thats wad the hairdresser called it. and clever yousian forgot to bring his ticket..and he got his wonderful dream. LOL.

女大十八变男大..erm..??? haha. everyone dressed up and some pple really look different and refreshing. some may be abit off..but still look nice la. hahah..but our class peeps and the kayak peeps really look good and i mean it la.

i guess the core activity of prom was to take photos. i guess i quite took a lot of photos ba although i dun have a cam. haha so hopefully those with cams send me the photos!! oh and i toook a photo with felicia chin. i was damn excited!! she's so pretty la..heh. dream came true..haha. but i dun tink i look nice in that photo, and in fact i realise i am not that photogenic afterall.

dinner was a dunno-wads-the-number course meal. hahaha..not bad la. another thing abt prom is of cuz the prom king and queen. the results wasnt wad i expected i have to say. disappointing..lol.

aft prom shld be post prom but i din go post prom which was at MOX. i followed the s64 pple and we went to clarke quay aft a veh long deliberaation. we ended up in MOS. hoho my 1st time clubbing. but it was seriously great!! haha..everyone jus got high and danced la although we dunno how to dance. all the familiar songs keep playing and playing and we din wanna get down that rotating platform. haha. its a place to relieve stress..lol.

aft that we went to el's hse. it was abt 3am le ba. chilled, watched soccer, sleep and ta-da i cabbed home in the morning. so conclusion, it was a fun-filled day.

oh well, so now its really the official end of vj life le. hopefully, everyone still keep in contact ba, esp the prcs who are all going bck to china. i love my class, 06s64. and i love kayak too. =D

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2007-12-03T22:30:00.000+08:00

broke. zzz..
i got so many things to write but i am jus not in the mood to do so.

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2007-11-30T12:53:00.001+08:00

my 101th post. lol.

i've been slping alot since ytd as ytd i jus came bck frm the kayak chalet. kinda weird first time i leave chalet so early..reached home like 7am? haha. but oh well, tts cuz all the guys are like tired and sian. hmm din have nite cycling which i was looking forward too =( oh some idiot stole my slippers and i have to buy a new one. so yea..nvr leave ur slippers outside the chalet. nevertheless, still had a nice time there la..haha.

SIAN..i haven buy my prom stuff. such a waste of money to go =( sigh..anyone wants to go shopping? haha..

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2007-11-25T13:16:00.000+08:00

ok its my 100th post..finally. but its not gonna be a happy post. haha.

jus watched channelnewsasia.. den they said they found 2 bodies of the drowned dragonboat rowers in cambodia. sigh i dunno why i jus feel quite sad abt the whole incident.. maybe perhaps i was once frm a watersport? hmm its really a pity lo..all of them are like young and had a bright future ahead of them and this kind of thing happened.. sigh. feeling quite sorry..

but seriously, i tink that organisers of the event are to be blamed lo. pple are rowing on a river with turbulent waters and u made life jackets not compulsory?! i tink they need to bang their head and for a few thousand times. although dragonboats are like quite stable but that doesnt mean accidents wun happen what. grrr.. but the rowers ar.. also shld automatically wear their life jacks wad..since its compulsory in singapore. hmmm..

sigh but no matter what, its still quite a tragedy.

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2007-11-25T00:59:00.000+08:00

i was quite happy ytd.

i finally cleared most of my assignments, notes and stuffs. frm up to sec till jc. wow its an unimaginably huge amount of papers la..haha. but i kept my jc notes jus for in case.....touch wood!! haha also abit cannot bear to throw away and maybe nid to use in future. yup, so in the afternoon i painstakingly dragged the bags of papers to the nearby recycle bin and dump them inside. so shiok!! haha.

BUT i am quite disappointed abt smth. many singaporeans are like super inconsiderate. the town council or whatever placed a dustbin near the recycle bin and yet pple still wanna throw their rubbish into the recycle bins. and it made them stink. hello..cant they read its for papers only or for cans/bottles only. and seriously, tink singaporeans shld be more environmentally conscious lo..if i can adopt an environmentally friendly lifestyle, so can you!! LOL.

oh and another happy thing is that i changed my hp! not the latest or best phone arnd..but better than nth! haha but i can only enjoy it for a mth or so before i go ns and give it to my bro or smth =P haven really explored the whole phone yet but hopefully its better than that k750i ba. well, at least it looks nicer.. =P

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2007-11-21T12:26:00.000+08:00

alvl is finally over le. 2 yrs of effort and 12papers. haha. i really screwed up phy paper 1..kinda blank out halfway. i know i wun be getting the reaults that i wished for. nevertheless, i am still glad that its over for now.

haha ytd aft a's we had class outing. it's always very nice to mix arnd with all the class pple. full of jokes and laughter. while other classes headed for town, we went to east coast park. haha we had subway brunch there and after that we went to cycle! haha.. and obviously our all our fitness level dropped like crazy. after only 1+ hour we are alr feeling tired. plus, it's gonna rain so we decided to return the bikes and head to eeloong's hse. but the whole cylcin thing was original? who will think of cycling aft a's? haha but enjoyable la..

at el's hse was damn fun too. his hse transformed into some play room. pple playing xbox, cards and of cuz mahjong. and i am one of those at the mahjong table. unfortunately, i am always on the losing streak and thus became the biggest loser. grrr.. after that some of us guys went out to buy ingredients for the steamboat we gonna have later. 几个大男人去买菜. lol. we only spent out $70 to buy the food needed for 14 pple. thats like $5 per person..cheap right? haha. oh and we went to buy 4D of our register number too =P 0800!!! steamboat was nice la but poor el kept runnin arnd. haha. den we played a few round of card games and tv before playing the stupid truth or truth. zzz..not gonna mention anything. after that all of us went home lo..

yup that's my day ytd. i guess this is the time whereby our paths start to split le ba. i dunno when we gonna meet up agn other than sdd and the day we get our results. but no matter what, thank you 06s64 =) we rocks. hahhaaha.

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2007-11-17T13:42:00.000+08:00

one more paper and a'level is over!! end of jc life!! haha..actually its quite sad lo..2 yrs end so quickly. sigh.. i was thinkin that tues is gonna be my last day going to vjc until the day we get bck our results. haha...will miss the sch i tink. but of cuz i definitely wun miss the travelling..haha.

oh well lets have my summary on this alvl:
it was a bad start. i was stunned by the phy p3..found it weird. and so was p2..haha. hopefully p1 will be more normal.

gp was ok la..although its kinda disheartenin to know that more than half the ppl will choose the environmental qn.

maths was quite easy i tink. except for my few careless mistakes AGN.

chem was okok la. tink the p3 no time lo..p2 i was careless agn cuz of my pV=nRT. zzz..convert wrong units..6 marks gone!! haha..p1 was tricky i tink.

econs was freaking horrendous. dun even know why i went to do that stupid qn4. i sure die in essay. the case study i also speechless lo..all the things i wrote was practically crap. hahaha.

ok so in conclusion, got HOPE i can get gd results. but the chances are not very high. sigh..

cant wait for tues =)

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2007-11-15T00:21:00.000+08:00

haha i reactivated my blog =D
yay..so pple who drop by rmb to tag..haha.

now quite tired liao..nxt time den update ba.. esp on that horrendous alvl.
haha..still got 2 more papers to go..jiayou!! and also gdluck to all those who still have h3 and others.. =)

siannn..i wish to haf an overses trip this holiday.. especially with frens..hai.. my taiwan!! grrr.. haha..

cya!!

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2007-09-25T21:14:00.000+08:00

sense of impendimg doom.
mourning starts tml.
lol.

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2007-09-20T22:03:00.000+08:00

hooray..prelims is finally over!! can rest lo..or at least for these few days. one mth later a's will befall. zzz..but for now lets jus focus on relaxing and hopefully i dun tink too much abt how much i will score for my prelims. ytd dreamt tt mr ho told me i got S for maths..ahh!! haha..and i tink i screwed my chem paper 1 todae la. the last qn i knew the ans was 1 only but i went to shade A. wtf? grrr...

anw aft todae..had a class outing..but dun tink it was veh successful? haha..kinda splitted into grps and not everyone was arnd. yup i went wif one grp to watch ratatouille. it was veh nice and funny show. highly recommended though i tink its gonna get taken down soon. aft which went to k..but not at kbox. its at katong shopping complex..so much cheaper than kbox la. its like $20 per room for 3hrs? hahaha. but tink i veh tired now..singing is an exhaustive activity..haha.

only gonna return bck to sch nxt wed..veh slack hor? haha..but must really haf a good rest b4 chionging for a's. and i can imagine all the disappointed look on my tcher's way when i go bck on wed..sigh.

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2007-09-14T17:24:00.000+08:00

别人觉得你可以做到
你也觉得自己有那个能力
你充满信心地面对挑战
但是结果却是自己不停犯下愚蠢的错误
也发现自己的本领是极度的有限
这非常不好受
也许是自己想太多
或者是我这人有点忧郁
不过当你一次又一次地犯错
当你达不到目标
当你信心受打击时
这种滋味是痛苦的。

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2007-08-30T21:08:00.000+08:00

how i wish to burn all my notes in water and drink it down and hopefully all the contents will go into my brain instaed of my stomach. 3 days into the study break and i already feel like giving up. tink im not gonna finish all the syallbus. but seriously, im jus trying to complain here so pple reading this dun gif up hor. haha.

gp was a bad start..none of the topics i prepared for essay came out.. and the best thing is i only realise my points was invalid halfway thru the essay and i was so sure before writing it that it was ok. siann..and compre was not veh gd either. the summary was killer and bulwark sounds like some unknown tribal language.

tink i shld start praying now.
and thx for the jiayou..u all jiayou too.

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2007-08-23T19:06:00.000+08:00

mugging..mugging..mugging.
thats wad everyone is doing now.
its so stress when u are left behind.
thats life.
but what the heck..
life is not all abt mugging too.
so rmb to take a break and relax and set ur directions clear.
jiayou peeps =)

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2007-08-03T20:32:00.000+08:00

life in vj has been utterly boring and routine. going to school to study your guts out (ok, quite exaggerating but im jus sick of studying), eating aft sch with classmates at the few usual places and always reaching home before 5. argghhh..i really wanna go bck in time to when at least my life is abit more interesting. and also, so that prelims and a's wont come so soon. cant believe myself that im actually still rushin daily work and haven even started revising. perhaps if i had put in more effort into my studies then i wun be in such a rotten state now. i have seriously no confidence in achieving good results now.

lalalala..im complaining too much. i shld shut up =P

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2007-07-28T00:14:00.000+08:00

hi pple! firstly, thx for the pple that tagged. haha sorry but im lazy to reply and there's nth much for me to reply anw =P hehe..actually i realised most of the times im jus lazy to reply.

anw..todae was half day for vj cuz tml is college day. quite lame la..go there for a few hrs to sit in the LT. zzz.. anw the usual peeps frm s64 went to eat crystal jade todae. haha honestly it was my 2nd time there in my whole life. the congee was really quite yummy but its ex too..feel so cheated paying the GST. grrr... but its nice to have a class lunch =)

aft the lunch we kinda splited into 2 grps. one went to watch simpsons and the other went kbox. guess which side am i at? *drum roll...kbox! haha..thought it was more worth it to go k. its all abt opportunity cost..blah blah blah. haha. so it was sheena ting suhui me and suhua who came for awhile. too bad ys isnt arnd..eh ys nxt time mus come ar! 2pm-7pm leh.. damn shiok sia. but now my throat abit the pain la..haha. the stupid dancing, the high-ing and an overdosage of laughter..one word: crazy. hmm but i once agn feel cheated payin the bill. the thing went from supposedly $9++ to $16+..and the stupid thing is that it is mainly due to the 3 bowls of pathetic snacks. 1 bowl $5!! grrrrrr...

sigh i got a stupid corn on my feet and a veh big ulcer in my mouth. and both doesnt seem to go away and they're super annoying. !#$%^&*..plz let them disappear soon.

oh man there's still so much more work to do..

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2007-07-19T17:20:00.000+08:00

yupp..all good things come to an end.

although this kayaking journey had been rocky and tough, it will still be a wonderful and memorable one. a lot of lessons have been leant and bonds have been forged. i used to ask myself if i regretted joining the sport.. now my answer is a definite no. haha. oh well, i have been feeling quite lost these days. used to train like 5days a week but now i am free everyday aft sch. it feels like smth is missing. haha..i know it sounds veh stupid, esp this is what i desired so much before. grrr...dunno la. maybe this is how you feel when u lose smth that u worked so hard for..

prelims is coming in 2mths time and i haven started my preparations. i really dun like studying..sigh. the stress is definitely increasing everyday. but i really wish i can make it this time..so good luck to me and to all the people out there too =) 4As..nth is impossible.

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2007-07-11T19:26:00.000+08:00

it all ended.

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2007-07-08T13:52:00.000+08:00

"This is ten percent luck, twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure, fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name! "
-Fort Minor, Remember the Name-

Name to remember: VJC Kayak

"So what if it's XJC, down in the water, you all are the best."

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2007-07-06T21:24:00.001+08:00

its coming... 4 days left. no sacrifices, no victory.

oh and we shld really do our part to save earth cuz we are alr facing the dire consequences and its is only set to worsen day after day if we really do nth abt it.

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2007-06-29T00:37:00.000+08:00

end of ct2. tink i can say byebye to all my As and Bs. maybe even the Cs and Ds. i feel so lousy for this ct2..there wasnt one paper that i am confident in. damnit!! sigh..and no rest for me as trng starts soon agn..the final 1 week plus. still can vividly rmb the day at the t-block classroom when peiying asked us to countdown the days we left. time flies sia..

went to watch transformer with the class peeps jus now. haha..thought it was quite nice even though the story is abit lame. but the effects and fighting scenes are veh cool. and i want a chevrolet now!! haha..watch the movie and u will know why..

alright..i will end here. duno when will i be blogging agn. perhaps aft nationals? tkcare pple..rest well for the coming few days and go bck to studying.

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2007-06-13T19:06:00.000+08:00

What does your handwriting say about YOU?

The results of your analysis say:
You plan ahead, and are interested in beauty, design, outward appearance, and symmetry.
You are a person who thinks before acting, intelligent and thorough.
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.
You are self-confident and like to bring attention to yourself.

haha recently did this test..wa...quite impressive. am i like that? lol.

there's no time for anything. screwed up big time. and the kayak guys team seem to be going down during this critical period. hopefully i will stay fine? sigh. so hey really tkcare guys, left only a few weeks..plz endure and jiayou!! and this one month is so much worse than the one week march hols. doesnt make sense huh? well, apparently it does for me. im gonna die for ct2.

and thx for those who tagged. haven been updating and visiting your blogs. so yea..thx for ur well wishes too =)

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2007-06-02T19:11:00.000+08:00

i duno wad to type. jus feel like bloggin. dun even know what is going thru my mind right now.. sigh..

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2007-05-25T22:25:00.001+08:00

sorry for not updating for ages. haha.

ok todae is a full day so apparently i nvr even go to sch. some of our class pple met up and watch pirates at vivo.haha 1st time go GVmax..quite shiok. seats got lots of space. anyway the show was not bad la..starting was boring..but towards the end really nice. hmm aft which we went to eat lunch..den me george sheena oliver cabbed down to tpsh to watch bball gals cuz we were alr late.

went we arrived its alr end of 1st half and vj was losing. but the 2nd half was seriously damn exciting. the gals fought veh hard and rj was gd. and everyone was so excited and hyped up esp when vj scores. haha and in the end they won. woohoo!! they are seriously good la and the match was nice. hee..grats to xinying =D

aft tt went down to jln besar to support soccer gals..wif george and yongsheng. others nice panggseh. haha jkjk. we went goldenmile to makan 1st as we arrived super early..and there's this belgian choc stall there. quite nice la but tink not worth it. anyway bck to soccer..apparently we lost to sa 0-1..but hey vj soccer gals u all haf alr done a veh gd job and vj is prooud of u all. and farah..dun tink u will be reading this but we will always support u no matter wad..like george said, u're our winner =)

sadly, but true, i guess this yr vj sports have not performed well, at least compared to last yr. but i really can feel wad these sprtsman/woman are feeling, cuz i am one now. the harder u train, the stronger the desire to win. and when u lose, the disappointment will be far greater than u expected. and i really duno wad happen if i lose mine, or perhaps cant even represent vj to compete. bleak future even till now. truthfully, one side of me trainin has become pointless as we know the cruel fact that there are pple so much better than us out there. however, it seems like giving up is not a choice as we still wanna put in our best and hope that there's a miracle. "wad if i can win but i lost cuz i choose to slack.." this shall not happen. so vj kayak, lets do our best for this june hols =D

good job victorians for all the good performances in sports and performing arts. and goodluck to those who haven finish their competition.

ok..so i guess tml is the start of my hectic disastrous holiday schedule. perhaps i can blend with my shadow aft the hols..lol. sigh..but i really really hope that i have more time to study.

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2007-05-04T22:16:00.000+08:00

dun understand why am i forever so tired. sch jus sux totally.

but lookin a the brighter side, i ate at thaipan todae. so long nvr eat there le and we were very lucky to get in. seriously i miss the food there la. damn nice sia.. haha. got free dessert somemore. we vj students used to patronize them a lot in the past..but now the restaurant's business dropped drastically cuz we werent allow to go there cuz of complains by the residents.. =( but i hope i will get to go there again!

tml's trng agn. SIGH. and i seriously wanna win the friendly, if there is.

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2007-04-27T19:16:00.000+08:00

ooo..finally a day i got home before 5. wahahaha.

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2007-04-23T21:42:00.000+08:00

the hopelessness jus worsen day by day..
wtf.

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2007-04-22T18:49:00.000+08:00

sundays are kinda dreadful for me now. firstly, due to suffering from the after-effect of trainings, esp sat water trngs..i.e. charcoal red skin and the tiredness that can't seem to go away. secondly, all the unfinished revision and hmk that keeps piling week aft week. thirdly, the uttermost unwillingness in me to welcome the start of a new but stressful week. fourthly, there's nth much i can do to improve all these. sigh.

on the other hand, one thing that really cheers me up is to be with my frens =) friday was really nice. miss all the crapping and laughter that we had. missin the stjohn days.. haha. i truly hope that we will have more 6yrs to come and dun forget our gathering at the ferris wheel! haha. and i feel flattered when the gals praise how good anderson guys are..wahahaha. so bhb. oh anyway, thanks for the bag that u all bought. know its quite ex..so yea..really really a big thankyou =)

dreading tml..

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2007-04-17T21:04:00.000+08:00

17 APRIL 2007.

THANK YOU..
1. everyone for all your bdae wishes, either thru sms, face-to-face or tags.
2. 06S64 for your musical set for kids and the happiness book and the sunny taupok. lol
3. kayak ppl for your dunking x 3. (suay...)
4. all my friends and my family.

=D

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2007-04-13T20:04:00.000+08:00

shucks..musicfest has alr started by now and im here bloggin. grrrr..i wanna go musicfest!! but sigh i cldnt get a ticket. tink the system jus screwed up big time. the more you vote the higher the chances of getting a ticket? yea rite~ so many pple voted but they got none and yet some who nvr vote got the ticket. wth?

todae got bck pw result. another thing tt spoilt my mood todae. seriously wondering why some pple who deserve to get A din get A..and some who dun even deserve it got the A. well well, the world is just so unfair after all.

things haven been veh smooth for me i guess? i can really go and film my own "a series of unfortunate event" haha. based on true story sumore. lol.

tml water trg agn. hope he wun chase me away agn..haha. my bleak future..

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2007-04-10T22:06:00.000+08:00

haven been bloggin for quite long. paiseh cuz these days abit busy and life has been quite down for me. and now im not feelin veh well due to the lack of slp. jus ytd nite i slept at 2am jus to finish an econs csq. sigh. anyway thx pple for taggin. at least i still know tt pple visit my blog..haha. i will go tag u all soon when im more free =)

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2007-03-31T18:59:00.000+08:00

hey thx pple for taggin. wt ar im not going to ur that 6 thingy thing hor..paiseh. and fangyi ar..being tanned isnt tt gd aft all. im having this veh terrible after-effect of sunburn..now my skin on my back and arm are peeling like mad. leaving patches of uneven colored skin..yucks.

todae was national jnr championship 1st day. no one made it to the finals. but everyone done well..so gdjob!! dun be despair cuz there's still tml. and gdluck to the pple competing tml!! and aft tml, we will have tougher challenges to face. and todae some sick shit happen to us agn..and i dun wanna talk abt it. its always happening to us. whatever.

my leg hurts.

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2007-03-28T21:19:00.000+08:00

当盲目的黑夜清晰过白昼
当奢侈的快乐赔上了所有
当假装的理智熬不过放纵
每个路口怎么转都错
我进退不得谁救我

a part of lyrcis frm one of 孙燕姿 new song call 飘着.
it actually describes how one is blinded and feels helpless.

tink some pple are right sayin im an emo kid. hahahaha. but no la im not emo-ing now and tink im not tt emo these days liao. jus tend to tink more. =)

yea but i really wish there's one day (who doesnt?) i can jus rest one whole day. be carefree, stop restricting myself and spend the day doing what i like without any worries. but u know i tink it's really kinda impossible and that's why its call a wish. haha.

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2007-03-24T21:20:00.000+08:00

yawn. feeling so tired now. and im red hot and feeling feverish. hope im not fallin sick soon. the sun todae was killing me. and trg wasnt veh interesting either. and my legs failed me once agn. sigh..i duno wad to say.

anyway congrats to asjab for the good performance at comp. i wldnt say its outstanding though. but nevertheless, good job and cont to strive harder ba.

i rmb mdm neo once joked with us asking, "What is the most common fault?" its not tear nor reverse fault or whatsoever. The most common fault is "YOUR" fault. and i really think its damn true. sometimes the mistake jus lie in oneself and not the others. and not many can acheive the ability of reflecting one's own actions and words before starting to blame others for not doing their jobs well. i admit sometimes im like that but the whole world is jus like that too. ugly and deceiving.

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2007-03-18T19:57:00.000+08:00

hey u pple no nid to rub salt on my wound la k..getting rejected frm 300 is damn sad le k. grrr...

sigh tml sch starts and im so not ready for it. holiday not like holiday..i seriously haven rested and played enough. next term is gonna be super hectic and super hiong i guess. both trainings and studies..dun even know if i can take it not.

still feeling tired frm the lack of slp as we went to stay over at tzeting's hse last nite. got sheena george ys me and of cuz the host, ting. hahah. din manage to go k so decided to go her hse to play mahjong. pretty random i tink but it was quite nice la. i was the 1st to knock out though =P class outing these days are pretty rare and its always the few usual ppl tt turn up. haha.

ok la..happy studying and cca-ing. and gd luck for those in schs tt haven take their ct. tkcare.

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2007-03-15T21:38:00.000+08:00

wanted to watch 300 todae but i kana rejected.
!#%^&*
its jus a month away to my bdae lo..sigh..nvm.

but anyway..ended up watching music and lyrics. din regret it cuz it was a nice show..haha. and i like the song.. Way Back into Love =D hope i will meet u online soon wt..hahah.

thx for taggin peeps. lazy to reply.

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2007-03-12T19:19:00.000+08:00

after todae, i am starting to doubt my capabilities agn..
am i jus pure lousy?
maybe cuz im feelin unwell?
nah..its jus an excuse to delude myself..
and its not as if i will be pardoned..
others can do it..why cant i?
conclusion: im jus not gd.

perhaps the desire for power and strength is neverending.
the world is filled with greedy people after all.
"...i want to be good because i'm lousy.
i want to be better because good isn't enough.
i want to be even better because others are better.
i want to be the best because i want to surpass others..."

haha. whatever.

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2007-03-10T18:49:00.000+08:00

hey pple. long time nvr update le. have been having common tests..so ya lo. dun tink will do well la but expected..nvm.

todae 1st training aft so long. wasnt veh smooth for me i guess. and as always la burnt and blisters. sigh dun tink i will survive on monday..seriously.

reply tags:
to carmen: eh why nvr see you..wad time was tt? haha..

to guess who: use back ur real name la..

to fangyi: bu hao. bu hao. haha..you leh?

to slipperdan: cuz we take diff. bus wad..

to weiting: u're so random...

to cel: yea i know..regret also no use la. cant change combi liao..

tkcare everyone.

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2007-03-03T10:05:00.000+08:00

i am finally updating. haha.

ytd's was the release of alvl results. i tink vj did well this yr though i got a feeling its still not as gd compared to last yr. haha later go and read newspaper perhaps they will say more and compare with some other schs. and lets pray that monday will be a full day of half day..even mrs chan came bck to ask us to request the principal for it. so...he better give it to us man.
moreover, we j2s desperately need to study for the common test.

kinda indirectly pressurized to study from lookin at the results ytd since its gonna be us taking the exam in perhaps 7mths time? oh man..sigh. seriously, common tests have been driving me nuts. im totally unprepared for it even though i've been attempting to study zealously for the past few days. muggin is jus not for me..haha. ohwell..walk one step see one step ba. as long i get Es for all my subjs including GP, i will be happy enough.

have been discussing with pple these days abt how we miss olvl. olvl is so much more relaxing and easy. studyin for 10 subjs then is seriously nth as compared to studying 5 subjs now. irony. and i tink im regretting for not taking geog in the veh 1st place. sigh.

good luck everyone. wish me luck too. lol.

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2007-02-21T21:12:00.000+08:00

todae was a significant day..

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2007-02-18T00:23:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CNY!!

although i duno wads so happy abt it. mb the xcept for the fact tt u get hongbaos and visit frens hse=) other than that.. i kinda dread cny. cny is getting more and more boring for me every yr. and i really hate it when visiting relatives hse and having to put on a facade to entertain them. and i seriously cannot communicate with them so i will end up getting very very bored. and its not as if the new yr shows are extremely interesting and i cant keep munching on the new yr goodies forever, esp this yr cuz of the stupid x-country. realise tt its actually qt dumb for the sch to put it jus aft the new yr hols. grrrr.....

nonetheless..enjoy ur holidays pple. have lots of fun but dun forget to study for common test. haha.

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2007-02-15T21:50:00.000+08:00

hey pple..duno wad to blog abt actually. veh sian these days actually. sorry if i look kinda dao or moody these days. or mb crazy at times. haha..jus duno wads happening to me. yup..

im lazy to reply tags. but ya thx for tagggin and im alrite. hmm u all also jiayou and tkcare ba.

happy cny =)

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2007-02-10T22:40:00.000+08:00

oh its the sat of another wk agn. time is passing so fast. but im not doing much abt my studies though. at most is finish all the hmk. grasp and understand anything? definitely..no. im so dead dead. i cant bring myself to sit down and study. provided if i've the time and energy though.

ytd was george bdae. he's so lucky. haha. and ytd all the sec4s got their results. wonder how some of the j1s i know do..hmmmm. hopefully they all do well and can stay in vj ba. heard tt ander did veh well..like msg 10.1. imbaa..and weilun top scorer. woohoo!! my descendant..wahahaha.

lets talk abt todae. i wore gloves for trg and end up i got this terribly ugly tan line on at my wrist. its so damn obvious la. the color diff between arm and hand. grrrr...i wanna be tanned..not BLACK. oh well..but todae was super tiring. 3hrs of water..too long but kinda fruitful though. lets work hard man jiawei..be the best t2 pair.

gonna get my xray results nxt mon. sigh..feel veh crippled these days cuz cant join the team for running or circuits. cyclin is boring..but of cuz its much more easy as compared to running =D jus wondering wad will happen when i get my xray thing..
1. smth happen to me and i cant run for x-country and worry abt my top 50 thing nxt time and worry wad the docs gonna do to me.
2. nth happen to me but im excused for x-country.
3. nth happen to me and i gonna run for x-country and pray tt i get into top50 miraculously. or else..goodbye fellow kayakers.

so how?? dunno..dilemma. try not tink abt it ba...and hopefully all the guys and gals can make it ba. esp the guys cuz our competition is worse and everyone is getting injured. tkcare man, esp zhiwei. go see doc..

ohhh..vday is coming. lonely vday agn for me..but its the same every yr la..so its ok. hahaha. but happy frenship day to everyone =D and happy vday to all the couples out there.

todae entry qt long sia..

reply tags..
to carmen: yox..my crewlet rocks ma. haha..aiya my leg injured ma so cycle alone.

to wai: why am i mr small eyes?

to bird: oh haha gd for u lo =)

to fy: shld be able to make it la..hehe..

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2007-02-04T09:19:00.000+08:00

im scared. im sad.
wth.

on a lighter note.. i had 2 great jts on fri and sat. haha. fri was s64 jts at airport swensens. ok la the jnr class wasnt as bad..kinda wacky and rowdy and bitchy. hahaha. den ytd jts was frm my crewlet..adidas!! woohhooo...we went to new york new york. the food there is so much better than swensens la. too bad not everyone was there. we ended up talking cock on the esplanade roof top aft the meal and it was veh funny, esp when ian starts to stress up. and i tink the gals ytd was quite "tai tai" lol. but anyway..thank you for the treat adidas =) although i dun tink anyone of u will b reading this.

replying tags:
to wai: yuppp..see you ard too =)

to jw: haha too bad..im an emo person. nvr emo alot liao la. tkcare.

to peiying: wawa..come here and praise me cute. really meh? haha cya chio bu.

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2007-01-27T20:19:00.000+08:00

倒霉

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2007-01-21T22:16:00.000+08:00

I thought of an essay qn.."Sleeping and resting is a luxury of life in today's society, especially for JiaQing." How far do you agree?

My ans: I fucking(sorry for my limited vocab, tink im getting more vulgar these days. tts bad.) agree to an enormous extent.

haha ok that was pretty random. hmm actucally i realised act qt a no. of pple is reading my blog..esp on that entry. sorry abt my ap and thx for those who visited my blog whether or not u tagged or if u agreed to wad i say. haha.

gonna reply tags..

weiting: haha wad kind of reasons? nv tell me sia..anyway at least ur principal makes u laugh. our new principal dun. he sux. and i mean it. seriously. honestly.

junkia: thankyou. duno wad else to say. haha.

fangyi: ya la ya la..u forever cute nice innocent pretty angelic and SLIM. wahahha..*puke.

jasm: thx.. dun tink i will buy her singles. but if u wan me to choose, i will support her la. u tkcare too..i also hope to see you soon but i doubt the 'soon' will be really soon.

yousian: hey new v-capt. u also la..dun emo so often. haha.

another new week is starting. sigh..time is passing so fast..but yet so slow. tkcare pple.

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2007-01-20T19:46:00.000+08:00

oh its finally sat. so am i going to blog abt kayak agn?

the ans..NO.

cya nxt time den

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2007-01-14T21:48:00.000+08:00

i was thinkin shld i jus del my previous entry cuz i dun really like to see such depressin entries on my blog. but oh well decided i shld not..at least it serves sum purpose like reminding me tt i've went thru hell and its kinda alrite to say aloud once in awhile that u're not feeling ok. haha.

but yea..thx to gary wai bird fy for ur tags. haha..at least i know there're still some supportive frens out there encouragin me when im down. makes a lot of diff =D frens play such an essential role in my life and i thank all my frens for being my fren. hahaha.

todae nth much la. body aching all over..cant seem to perk up. a day of sian-zation. but oh well..at least i spent some time tryin to do the international trade tutorial and finishing the chem mcq.

perhaps i wun be bloggin until nxt sat or sun. haha u can guess why i wun b free to do so frm mon to fri.

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2007-01-13T22:07:00.000+08:00

on a side note..im missing the all the ants agn. haha.

2007-01-13T21:18:00.000+08:00

i cant help it but i hafta blog abt kayak.. i dun care if any kayak pple is gonna read this.. im having an attitude problem now and im gonna express it out.

seriously, i tink its fking crazy to train like 6days a week. i know some of you out there may jus say so what..other schs are training as hard and our tchers will most prob say tt we're 4eva lousy and not training hard enough. but u know..almost everyday someone will be askin me why are we training so hard. xcept for sundays i guess cuz i wun b meeting anyone unless my parents start asking me too. but anyway my ans will be..i dunno. actually i know the ans..its for ourselves, its for tt 2days, its for our acheivements etc etc..but den i nid to rest, i nid to sit down and do other things. every sch day i will reaching home at 8+..aft bath and dinner i will haf no energy to do anything. i wanna study, i wanna do my hmk, i wanna watch tv and play but i cant. im simply exhausted. moreover, our future is still unpredictable and unstable. i know tis is not the right mentality but its jus a reality check.

im not sayin we shld not train. but plz at least have a break in between. dun tink we're trg right. oh well..but i duno why im complainin so hard cuz i know nth will change no matter wad i say. one side of me will be cursing and swearing..but i will jus end up following instructions and endure thru this shit. i apologise for being so whiney and perhaps makin excuses for alot of stuffs. maybe tis is wad u call commitment and sacrifices. i will jus shut up den.

its jus insane to do 600 pushups right aft gym. my arms are breaking. DAMN YOU.

i still love my cca though.

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2007-01-09T21:59:00.000+08:00

!#%=^&*(@+`-_

I NEED MORE SLPING TIME.

sigh i miss orientation.

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2007-01-06T20:20:00.000+08:00

We got the fever
its hot and it cant be stop
We got the power
its hot and it cant be stop
we got the front-hoo!! back-ha!! side-hoo ha!!
AYDEN AYDEN AAAAAAA....BA!!

woohoo!! orientation 2007 ended and it totally rocks la. haha im sure vj has one fo the best o1 ard..yea man!! all the masss dances, games, cheering, dinner cum hanging ard etc etc..its really cooooool. i tink all the ogls and also the sc, ct council and house comm have put in a great effot and we deserve a round of applause =D the freshmen too la..esp AYDEN ADIDAS(although u all said i was boring =P) its really kinda touching during the part when they cheered without the ogls..oh man. well done ayden!! and adidas is a great og..defintely. haha..enjoyed the 3days spent with u guys =) oh..and also congrats creon for getting 1st..haha. woo cant wait for suntec mass dance and sea regetta..

-transition of mood....-

today was totally tiring..slept at 0030, and hafta wake up so early to go training with a veh bad sore throat. our 1st water trg since dunno when. siggghhh..i tink im getting sick of kayak. im not writing this cuz i wanna quit..of cuz i wanna persevere on..but im jus tired. hmmm..nvm. and i tink i got sunburn -_-"

and happy bdae wt =) i like the boiled papaya in freshmilk..hahaha. hope u like the puma bag..

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2007-01-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

alot of pple are writing their new yr resolutions..kinda inspired me to write one? haha.

actually also nth much la..
1) to score like damn well for all my a's and preferably all my tests (xcept for the coming econs r-paper? prepare to flunk..haha)
2) hope that i can acheive smth in kayak?
3) get to make more new frens =)
4) haha actually i dunno le...

looking back at 2006..its been a yr full of ups and downs. and i definitely mean it. from adapting to jc life..to meeting new faces..to strugglin in my cca..to the grumbling of otc..to the muggin for promos..to the fruitful trip to cambodia and ending with ogl training. lucky there're frens tt accompany me along the way..or else i wldnt be typing this entry here rite now. frens are impt..so dun even gif them up as they may nvr come bck agn. haha..though its a tiring yr but its also an enriching and meaningful yr. learned alot..haha. time flies..

so tml will be the start of orienation. surprisingly, im nt feelin lyk excited now. maybe its the econs r -__-" haha normal. hmmm hopefully it will be a rockin one and my og will be fun =)

takecare everyone. and haf a fantastic yr ahead.

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2006-12-31T23:45:00.000+08:00

its 15min to 2007..but i cant wait. haha wishing everybody..

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

lol.

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2006-12-28T23:03:00.000+08:00

ayden got a new fever cheer. but i tink i really gonna tio fever if i dun rest more. haha. haf been suffering frm lyk insomnia these few days. veh bad..every nite only 3 or 4 hrs of slp. damn sad. dun ask me thinking of who cuz im not thinking of anyone. oh man..my bio clock spoil liao la. i wan slp so badly..desperate. anyway ayden rox la.. =D

the rain doesnt stop. and the weather is so cold.

duno wad im typing la. grrrrr..i mus b going crazy. sigh duno wad im feeling rite now..hopeless.

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2006-12-25T21:26:00.000+08:00

todae went out with wt and watched the holiday!! haha it is a veh veh nice show i tink. not the usual kind of romance show..enjoyed it =) yea..act kinda emo-ed todae..but thx wt for ur tolerance. hmmm..and also ur wasted time shoppin with me for my bag though i din get one in the end =P but hey saw alot of puma stuffs la..haha. oh and saw a rainbow on the way home..veh long nv see rainbow le. nice nice..

love is blind.

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2006-12-25T00:55:00.000+08:00

firstly, merry xmas everyone!! and soon it will be 2007. lol.

anw on xmas eve had a class outing. or mb a grp outing with some class pple. only 7 pple turned up..sheena george zhili junkiat shiyi munhoe and me!! haha went swensens la..think its so not worth it to eat there. both quantity and quality not veh gd plus its ex!! haha though i like the apple crumble =P aft which we ended up walking ard aimlessly with nth to do. den ended up me george sheena jk went to orchard. shopped ard wisma and we 3 guys took a pic at topshop.

den sheena and george went off..me and jk waited in orchard for yousian. he took dammmnnn looonnnng to come la. almost died waiting. den went cine to eat and den play pool lo. became damn sucky at pool..too long nvr play liao or mb i jus suck at tt game =( haha oh and we saw this guy tt looks lyk mr teo!! haha it was damn funny..but he has no connection with mrteo la. later 3 of us went walking along orchard and the place was damn crowded lyk hell. and pple are spraying the fake "snow" everywhere. idiot leh..irritating and den its so horrible inhaling all the foamy particles. grrrrr. shld haf jus stayed at home..lol. but still had a nice time la..feel great hanging out with frens =)

this is not the christmas i wished for....nvm. forget it.

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2006-12-20T21:53:00.000+08:00

nth to write..hmmm tink i shld blog abt ogl trg. haha. my grp is call ayden and its a rocking grp la. jus tt our grp always end up being the smallest cuz alot of pple din come =( tink our grp qt spoiler cuz we're always laughing during cheers and disrupting games with the ogl cheer. sorry sheena. hahaha. but ogl trg is fun though. a bunch of pple jus go crazy together..and mass dance is cool, esp when u know how to do all 6. haha..cant wait for orientation and see who's in my grp.

oh and on mon aft the ogl trg, s64 guys went for a steamboat dinner. all the gals pangseh la..lol jkjk. it was fun la..did alot of stupid things and laughed like hell. the food was nice but dun ever try the ma2 la4 soup cuz its not soup..its jus practically oil. disgusting. haha. we played zhong ji mi ma in the end..and george is damn suay cuz he's always the one tt tio the number. ate all the disgusting things. oh man..we shld haf more outings..but hols gonna end liao..=/ sad..

have been raining cats and dogs these days..hmmm. do tkcare pple..dun get caught in the rain and fall sick. but the weather is veh gd for slping though =P hopefully tml wun rain..

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2006-12-19T22:47:00.000+08:00

A-Y-D-E-N
ayden ants =D

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2006-12-16T12:28:00.000+08:00

my 3rd entry todae?
haha the first 2 were lyrics ba..sigh. not emo-ing but ya jus feel lyk putting them up. this world is simply jus too complicated for me to understand..so why try so hard? only torture urself when u over-tink. haha. but apparently i do torture myself once in awhile..lol.

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